Day One Hundred Sixty One - Recovery Day 34
Almost back to normal ;)
Or at least that's how I feel. Man, I tell you it's tough when one day you have money, and a few days later you're broke again lol. That's me, today! No money. Just a few days back I had that big casino win, well for me it was big. $215 is a lot of money, but rather that was grandpa's money and he just gave me a gift of some of it, which was an Awesome gift. But as it happens, money disappears over time, which mine did. My truck drinks way too much gas too. I mean, I can fill up my tank and just driving around town, I'll be empty in a little past a week. However, long distances, that truck does Amazing on gas. I just wish it were the same driving around here. I can't wait to get my car running, or rather keep it running. I need to replace the transmission pan and gasket underneath. That's what's keeping it from running because it's leaking transmission oil. Once that's done, I should be good, but it still needs more work. Anyway, that's my situation.
I'm feeling Awesome today! I still got that adhesive stuff on my incision from taking those strips off. It looks funny! I don't wanna peel that stuff off because I might hurt my incision, even though it looks super healed now. I'm just over careful.
Didn't do much today, just hung out here at home. Well I had $5 in my wallet so we went up to the casino and I tried to turn it into something bigger so we could get some gas money, but I had zero luck today.
So much on my mind today and I feel like I've been failing at so many things. I really need to ask God for help on so many battles that I fight in my head. Today, I feel like I've lost to so many and I don't want this to consume my life. I have a long road to continue on once my recovery is over and the last thing I need is lack of confidence and lack of focus.
We went to church tonight to meet my uncle and aunt. They helped us pull out the Halloween stuff at church. Now I've got a list of the things we need for Hallowed Eve 8. After we left, Lees and I drove to SPIRIT, that Halloween store. There are lots of things we want to get for both the church and for our place to decorate this year. Oh man, there was this really hot girl who was following me around in the store. I think she worked ther...ok she worked there. It was cool, but you know for me it's so hard to talk to women because they see me with Lisa and automatically think that she and I are a couple so if I try and talk to them, they think I'm this jerk off who cheats on his gf and yada yada yada. It's frustrating for me, so that's why I don't talk to girls much. I hope to change that, though. I won't meet anyone by just keeping quiet. Take chances!!
Or at least that's how I feel. Man, I tell you it's tough when one day you have money, and a few days later you're broke again lol. That's me, today! No money. Just a few days back I had that big casino win, well for me it was big. $215 is a lot of money, but rather that was grandpa's money and he just gave me a gift of some of it, which was an Awesome gift. But as it happens, money disappears over time, which mine did. My truck drinks way too much gas too. I mean, I can fill up my tank and just driving around town, I'll be empty in a little past a week. However, long distances, that truck does Amazing on gas. I just wish it were the same driving around here. I can't wait to get my car running, or rather keep it running. I need to replace the transmission pan and gasket underneath. That's what's keeping it from running because it's leaking transmission oil. Once that's done, I should be good, but it still needs more work. Anyway, that's my situation.
I'm feeling Awesome today! I still got that adhesive stuff on my incision from taking those strips off. It looks funny! I don't wanna peel that stuff off because I might hurt my incision, even though it looks super healed now. I'm just over careful.
Didn't do much today, just hung out here at home. Well I had $5 in my wallet so we went up to the casino and I tried to turn it into something bigger so we could get some gas money, but I had zero luck today.
So much on my mind today and I feel like I've been failing at so many things. I really need to ask God for help on so many battles that I fight in my head. Today, I feel like I've lost to so many and I don't want this to consume my life. I have a long road to continue on once my recovery is over and the last thing I need is lack of confidence and lack of focus.
We went to church tonight to meet my uncle and aunt. They helped us pull out the Halloween stuff at church. Now I've got a list of the things we need for Hallowed Eve 8. After we left, Lees and I drove to SPIRIT, that Halloween store. There are lots of things we want to get for both the church and for our place to decorate this year. Oh man, there was this really hot girl who was following me around in the store. I think she worked ther...ok she worked there. It was cool, but you know for me it's so hard to talk to women because they see me with Lisa and automatically think that she and I are a couple so if I try and talk to them, they think I'm this jerk off who cheats on his gf and yada yada yada. It's frustrating for me, so that's why I don't talk to girls much. I hope to change that, though. I won't meet anyone by just keeping quiet. Take chances!!
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