Day One Hundred Ninety Two - RBD
Today is/was the dreaded Bills Day!!!
Oh man I always hate these days. They just suck all our money out of us. We got up early and started getting ready for this crazy day. Well, fortunately it went sort of ok, but we don't have much money left over, only $70. Bills took the rest, but I'm very glad we got the important things out of the way.
When we were done, Lees and I stopped at Walmart and bought some food for lunch.
You know, one thing that is really bothering me is that I know that I've put on weight in these past two months of recovery. It's actually been getting me down really bad. I have this towel that before I started Fyrescape, the thing came no where near close to wrapping around my waist. There must've been about a ten inch gap in the back. Well, that was always my measuring thing. By the end of last year, that towel could wrap around my waist and touch at the ends. I was so proud of that! Then, by this past April on into June, the towel could actually overlap. Well the other day I tested it out again and to my sad surprise, it no longer touches. There's maybe a half inch gap now :( That really freaked me out! It's gotten me down and all those feelings of losing all that progress that I've made in the last year and a half. I've really been fighting with that bad and honestly, it's really bringing me down super bad. I get out there and do my 3 miles, but I know that's not enough. The only thing is that my legs are really tired when I'm done, well no necessarily my legs, but my feet. My feet are going crazy when I'm done. I haven't done ANY exercising during my recovering. I did those couple of days at 3 miles, but that wasn't everyday. Now, I'm back to doing it daily every morning. It is very hard! But I'm keeping it up. I think, however, that yesterday and today of not doing my exercises has really added to bringing me down. Like I'm already getting lazy :( Ugh, this is not cool.
Since it's Friday, this is Grandpa and I's day to get out to the casino and try our luck. I took Lisa to work, then headed right over there because the last Friday we met up there, Grandpa got there at 3:30 and I didn't arrive till almost 5. So today I was there by 3:20. I played just smalltime for about 2 hours. I didn't finally see grandpa until almost 6pm. We did not do to well right off. I mean, I did when I was playing smalltime, but then when I started playing big, trying to get some big money because Lisa and I really need to pay off those San Diego loans, that's when I started losing money. Grandpa was losing too. Well, actually he was winning and losing. He won $200 but then he'd put it back in, then he'd win again, but put that back in. I wish I had that kind of luck. I always walk in there with just a few bucks and try to win. Sometimes I do win, but last Friday I just won back my money and today, well it was the same damn way. I lost most of the $73 that I went in there with. Grandpa lost $300. At the last possible minute, however, I won back my money that I went in there with. $70. Grandpa hit a big win and won back $297. I was so glad and happy for him. I didn't want him losing his money in there. So he got it back as well. After that, we cashed out and left. I was angry! This is the second Friday in a row that I didn't win anything, or rather I didn't win any profit. Boy, those other Fridays, we both did Awesome! I was winning at least over a hundred dollars and that was helping us out with our stuff. I'm just so glad that today I filled up the gas tank AND I bought all my animals food so I don't have to worry about them at all, just in case I lost everything. The only thing we really need is wood pellets for our stove, but we're not completely out yet, and we need groceries. That's what we did not have enough money for because groceries, we need about 70 to 100 dollars to get by and wood pellets we need about 38 bucks. So that's what I was trying to win. But nothing :(
That was our night! Grandpa wants to try again next Friday, but yesterday my grandma got surgery. She got her teeth pulled out. This is a process that she's been doing over time. Next Thursday, she'll have to go back in to get her last 3 teeth pulled out so Grandpa again is not too sure if he'll be able to do the casino visit, but he's planning on it. All depends on how grandma feels. Today she was ok, so he came over. She stayed at home, though. Next Friday, we'll see. As for me, I'm not too happy because I really needed the money...ugh I need to get my mind off things.
I'm going to warm up the place, then go pick up Lisa here in a little bit. I'm sure she's always expecting me to surprise her with some big wins like before...but I hate not being able to do that. I feel so angry about not winning. I mean, ppl were winning all over the place in there, just not me or grandpa, well not until we were about to leave. That's kinda how it went last Friday also. I didn't finally win back my money until not long before we left. I am thankful for that, at least.
Oh man I always hate these days. They just suck all our money out of us. We got up early and started getting ready for this crazy day. Well, fortunately it went sort of ok, but we don't have much money left over, only $70. Bills took the rest, but I'm very glad we got the important things out of the way.
When we were done, Lees and I stopped at Walmart and bought some food for lunch.
You know, one thing that is really bothering me is that I know that I've put on weight in these past two months of recovery. It's actually been getting me down really bad. I have this towel that before I started Fyrescape, the thing came no where near close to wrapping around my waist. There must've been about a ten inch gap in the back. Well, that was always my measuring thing. By the end of last year, that towel could wrap around my waist and touch at the ends. I was so proud of that! Then, by this past April on into June, the towel could actually overlap. Well the other day I tested it out again and to my sad surprise, it no longer touches. There's maybe a half inch gap now :( That really freaked me out! It's gotten me down and all those feelings of losing all that progress that I've made in the last year and a half. I've really been fighting with that bad and honestly, it's really bringing me down super bad. I get out there and do my 3 miles, but I know that's not enough. The only thing is that my legs are really tired when I'm done, well no necessarily my legs, but my feet. My feet are going crazy when I'm done. I haven't done ANY exercising during my recovering. I did those couple of days at 3 miles, but that wasn't everyday. Now, I'm back to doing it daily every morning. It is very hard! But I'm keeping it up. I think, however, that yesterday and today of not doing my exercises has really added to bringing me down. Like I'm already getting lazy :( Ugh, this is not cool.
Since it's Friday, this is Grandpa and I's day to get out to the casino and try our luck. I took Lisa to work, then headed right over there because the last Friday we met up there, Grandpa got there at 3:30 and I didn't arrive till almost 5. So today I was there by 3:20. I played just smalltime for about 2 hours. I didn't finally see grandpa until almost 6pm. We did not do to well right off. I mean, I did when I was playing smalltime, but then when I started playing big, trying to get some big money because Lisa and I really need to pay off those San Diego loans, that's when I started losing money. Grandpa was losing too. Well, actually he was winning and losing. He won $200 but then he'd put it back in, then he'd win again, but put that back in. I wish I had that kind of luck. I always walk in there with just a few bucks and try to win. Sometimes I do win, but last Friday I just won back my money and today, well it was the same damn way. I lost most of the $73 that I went in there with. Grandpa lost $300. At the last possible minute, however, I won back my money that I went in there with. $70. Grandpa hit a big win and won back $297. I was so glad and happy for him. I didn't want him losing his money in there. So he got it back as well. After that, we cashed out and left. I was angry! This is the second Friday in a row that I didn't win anything, or rather I didn't win any profit. Boy, those other Fridays, we both did Awesome! I was winning at least over a hundred dollars and that was helping us out with our stuff. I'm just so glad that today I filled up the gas tank AND I bought all my animals food so I don't have to worry about them at all, just in case I lost everything. The only thing we really need is wood pellets for our stove, but we're not completely out yet, and we need groceries. That's what we did not have enough money for because groceries, we need about 70 to 100 dollars to get by and wood pellets we need about 38 bucks. So that's what I was trying to win. But nothing :(
That was our night! Grandpa wants to try again next Friday, but yesterday my grandma got surgery. She got her teeth pulled out. This is a process that she's been doing over time. Next Thursday, she'll have to go back in to get her last 3 teeth pulled out so Grandpa again is not too sure if he'll be able to do the casino visit, but he's planning on it. All depends on how grandma feels. Today she was ok, so he came over. She stayed at home, though. Next Friday, we'll see. As for me, I'm not too happy because I really needed the money...ugh I need to get my mind off things.
I'm going to warm up the place, then go pick up Lisa here in a little bit. I'm sure she's always expecting me to surprise her with some big wins like before...but I hate not being able to do that. I feel so angry about not winning. I mean, ppl were winning all over the place in there, just not me or grandpa, well not until we were about to leave. That's kinda how it went last Friday also. I didn't finally win back my money until not long before we left. I am thankful for that, at least.
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